The days are brighter then before.

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It seems like the air is getting crisper. More vibrant. more full of life, not stale cold. My practice continues to get better. I fret less. I love more. and more. and more. more. more.

Music lately has been a large part of the day. I find myself staying true to the artist and appreciating the art work and the physical form of having something in my hand to show for. I just don't think I am always ready for all the advances. I tend to always be nostalgic for the physical. wether it be a person, a letter, a book, a CD.

I hope to finally be picking up an instrument. My brother recently picked up the guitar and is excelling quickly. What couple doesn't fantasize about having a two person band? That is what I thought.

I am falling deep deep deeper into love with my career. I learn so much and find so much of it to be useful for different aspects of life. I hope to at some point in life be able to afford a dress form so I can start a whimsical dance with creating clothing I dream up in my head. Where else would I dream it?

The sky looked something of a picturesque picture. Where it is just the right color of blue and white clouds. Where you feel if you reach out you could almost touch it. but then you do, only to find out it lays somewhere in your dreams. I could almost feel spring today because of the 30˚ temps.
I miss my family dearly. They are more then just family or friends. It is hard to put a word to it as I don't really think a word has yet to be made for our relation to one another.

Bloom. blooming. bloomed.

Thus came the bliss.

I surprised myself by not writing about this earlier. Then I reflected, and noticed that it is because I have been so busy and fulfilled! I got a new job. I work now at a wonderful little shop that does upholstery and custom furniture. Although we do not have a wood shop at our store we have many tools that are also found in a wood shop. So far I have done 6 slip seats (dining), I have completely rebuilt a settee- the webbing, spring tying, padding,cover it, cover it, cover it! I have done two more seats, tore down a hell lot of chairs, And now am working on a beautiful sofa, same as the settee, but huge!

During my first two weeks my hands we so swollen that I would wake up having them numb. They looked like sausages. With cuts everywhere my hands are oddly happy. It is something that is quite lovely to be able to say that you love your job, and to be happy to go to work on monday rather then dread it.

Future planning.
I want to pick up tennis this summer.

the time has come..

for one and all. to play some ball.

it is going to be a great thing for this lady!

Have you forgotten how to love yourself.

One always tries to be thankful. Why, because it makes life easier if you choose to look at life in a 'positive' light. Is this easy? no. Finding that this point in life is one of the craziest. Some things in your life begin to settle in a pot o bliss, while others go DRAMATICALLY wrong. To find the balance in life is one thing that I am not sure will ever be achieved. I think that some may get closer then others but never fully there. I choose to do things I love, things that I cannot even really put into words what it does for me. The meditative quality that comes over me is the closest I have come to Euphoria. I found my thing that makes me truly tick. besides my husband! The only things that makes it tough is how to bring it to be apart of my every day life. $$

This time of year is always a cluster fuck, with holidays that bring on too much stress then good at times. To have to choose between time with families and then having gui....

I don't mean to be all somber, but sometimes I feel that is where I perform at my best, it is a strange ordeal that I for myself can only understand.

The song that brings me to my best, Red House Painters- Have you forgotten.


I miss my friends terribly and love them more then they could ever know. K&J.

Anyways.

I choose not to give up on my love.


Salude to Woodworking.

It only seems appropriate!

Went to the movie Julie/Julia.. It only seems appropriate to go to the computer after that movie. It was fantastic and in some respect I find myself in a very similar situation as Julia.. anyways. I chose my focus to remain on furniture, since it is what has been my passion all through life. When I thought I wanted to be in interior design student the one thing that kept me in it was the furniture. I would sketch chair after chair, couch after couch. I have an odd fascination in my art work with tactile features and texture. In sculpture class I always sculpted furniture. As the years have passed I have a deeper appreciation for more detailed woodworking and furniture, bringing me to Victorian, French Country style.

Over all I have had this evolution of a love for furniture without ever really being aware of 'it' being the thing that pulled me into all sorts of art mediums. I am fortunate enough to be taking a class on learning how to upholster. I think it will compliment my woodworking skills very nicely. I choose to be a person that does not give up on my dream and what really makes me tick and smile on the inside.

For this movie I challenge everyone that is finding them self in a hard place in life and see it, if it can only bring you the motivation it has brought me this evening.



Thank you to Julia and Julie.

in the change of things. For the good.

It seems to be a moment where I am at a loss for words. Knowing that there are some things in life that need a change to be at our strongest.

I am not even going to try, but change is a comin'

You can help Others!

I decided to join an MS walk. My mother grew up with a close friend. Their families were friends and they were the best of friends. Mary is one of the most beautiful souls that I have ever met and she means a lot to me. She has come to holiday get togethers and she enlightens everyone she meets. She has a certain knowledge of the world that comes from compassion that most people can never get to. Her heart is a unique thing and for her inspiration in my life I want to pay it forward to her and people like her! She has been diagnosed with MS for some time now.

My fathers long time friend and my godfather Ken also has been diagnosed with MS. He is a lovely gent and has love for everyone around him. He gives great bear hugs and sincerely cares about people. Over time it has slowed him down and has been lessening him to be able to do the things he loves most. Hunting, running around with German shorthairs and his family.

These people mean a great deal to me.

Seeing that my birthday is the day before the Madison MS walk I only thought it was appropriate that I start my 24 years of living in their names to give support and some sort of love that I have always felt was gained from them. These people are special, not because of MS it is just a part of their life that they refuse to bog them down.

We could all learn a lesson from these two beautiful people!

If you would like to donate to my walk that would be more then appreciated and know that it is going to a great cause and from one heart to another!

Thank you for your time.

Here is the link to my page, I just set it up. Lets see what we can do.

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Exhausted with love.

What a few days it had been. Rishi our great Pyrenees puppy arrived on Tuesday at 5. Needless to say there has been a lack of sleep in mark and my life! She is great, huge already large bones and beautiful. With almost too many toys surrounding her she lies asleep. With taking a few days off work to ensure our baby adjusts well I have been through 2 Steve Martin films. Yes I love his work... housesitter, which is my favorite and Roxanne. With many trips out to the potty and some successful and some not, we are seeing progress. With Rishi any progress we get excited about. I cannot even believe what it must like to have babies. That will not occur for us for a VERY long time, no one should expect it within the next 5 years at least. I don't know if it is my job or what but I am not the biggest fan of little kids.. Wait yes, I know it is my job.

The cats keep hissing or hiding from Rishi, they are pissed. Tazo is being better then Sacha which we did not see coming. Overall I want to pass out at any chance I can. I am excited for the next phase of puppy hood.. where she can hold her bladder better! Next week we will be rearing to go for another vet visit for her second round of shots! yippeeeee!

I must admit when she lies there passed out I just could squeeze her she is just SO cute!

It is time to get jealous!

That is right. This is Rishi. The Great Pyrenees breed has been around since 1800 b.c. that is right. I will have a goddess in my casa!

bigger things.

I hear of these great people that I dont even know, yet they touch my life and make me yearn for something greater, greater in the sense that I too can touch others lives and change/help them in their life. I feel like ever since I became aware this has been my greatest passion to strive towards. I want to get out there, have my voice heard. I dont want to be a shadow, I dont want to be an accessory. I want to be me a person that cares.

enough said

I am quite happy to say that this is my first post being (finally) a post-grad! Things are getting exciting. Seeing people that we have been wanting to hang out with in a long while! Dinner, drinks, snowshoes, houses, apartments, new beds, dreaming of backpacking! Life. Living. Trying to find my inner divine, cleaning, designing, painting. LIFE. I am quite thrilled that mark and I now are able to get out and enjoy each other with my school being done, his seasons over for a few months, and wedding planning, things are starting to get fun!

Trying to find my niche with getting back into shape that makes one thrive more and have more energy.

its close.

So close. i am a little nervous, however ready for the end. The trip has been an unexpected ride with going to 4 schools, and pushing in so many classes to just rid myself of this.

ALMOST there.

times through tea.

Today I decided to really clean. That normally means your come upon things in your past that you either put away for a reason, hide, or something that you thought at one moment I will need this or see it as something valuable. Something provoked me to go through my tea box. Yes, I love tea that much. Alone in that one box there were treasures and things one only wishes they do not have to think of again. I found letters I wrote from college. Tea that I shared numerous conversations and depth with. (my favorite teas) Then I found my Zen Dream tea. Which I have had since I was in high school. It reminds me of art class, since that is all I really did. I opened the tin only to find 2 packets left, but the smell brought me back to the moment and place. I closed my eyes and I was there. My Rishi tea brings me to a certain movie. I think of how tea has been a large part of my life. Once I fell for someone cause he offered me tea as a beverage, hot tea... it can do wonders for me.

There is something about the process of the person growing the plant, letting it age to the proper time, then picking it by hand, with love and grace, then choosing the type of tea, then bagging it or having it be loose, then to the person and who they share it with. No wonder the English love their tea as much as they do, its not about just the tea its about the experience. the mood it brings the conversations that occur, the love of connectedness that flows.

Something about process in most things I hold near, and sometimes I think people could appreciate life more if they just think about the things they have and how so many people have been apart of these things.

To you sip your tea.

to top it off I am watching before sunrise. bliss

it will be divine.

it is close, I think i am ready, i am ready. i cannot wait. I will be able to breathe. I am going to kick its ass.



It will simply be wonderful.

the end to a stressful time.



Blissssssssssssssssssssss.

beautiful nostalgia.

my new favorite artist.

JOHN DERIAN

It is what I dream of.

Michi- gan

This past weekend Mark and I went to Michigan, Traverse City. The Iceman was underway and was not so icy, well till the end of the race at least. It was a cold awakening that progressed over the three days. The drive was long but full of things to look at like the beautiful water, trees, and other ridiculous sign-age! It seemed like a good race to bring a dog to but I was empty handed. Maybe next year. We however did miss the dog fair here in WI.

This week has been consumed with wood working, staining, and cutting. Getting ready for the holidays, getting in trouble at work, oops.. it was nothing, but emotions. ha. Trying to kick my project in the ass by getting done quickly!! I hope that it all goes smoothly, it is coming together. Hopefully I can make my little sample pieces into something beautiful. Our house is clean, but not our clothes.

Is snow ah coming?

Ditty Bop

Days fly, with moments that take your attention. As you pass by leaves upon leaves and the oddly warm breeze blows by you, breathing seems a little easier. Sometimes if we are treated well with weather we can actually enjoy what is to come. Truthfully I cannot wait for snow shoeing and I hope that if we have a winter it is worth it. I had one of the best experiences yesterday, I would like to thank Cindy, so barley knows me but went out of her way to give great advise. Thus I met three Newfoundlands and I wish I could really put my elation into words, I was encompassed by three overly smart, knowing beings. It was almost spiritual, it overwhelmed me in a great way, I couldn't stop smiling!

For me I hope for simple things in life.
a garden
a puppy
walking in a field
doing yoga on a rock near water
sipping tea outside looking at mother nature
laughs
being with family
cooking and seeing people enjoy it
creating things
any animal
Just the beautiful life



This weekend will be a road trip to the lonely area of traverse city

Which I must say I am quite excited for.

Dreams

I love that dreams have no hold back. This could be an enjoyable thing or not. I like there there are no boundaries to dreams, who is in it (dead or alive)(if you know them or just have seen them) the places you can go..

My time has been occupied in this. And truthfully it makes me really happy I cannot wait to have one of my own. I cannot wait for mark and I more over!

Starting to take things into my own hand, trying to change the things that do not satisfy my needs. I am speaking up for me.

There comes a time in life where one should not settle, one should explore and take in the beauty this world has to offer. In life family is the most important thing. Really I cannot think of anything more important when it comes down to it.

And I love my almost husband SO much.

loss of words.

As I persue repositioning my priotities your eyes really begin to open. what you want to control to be in your near future, if you will, though control may not be the 'right' wording.

I wish that I could even put it into words.