someone who gives up her life. for months upon months. in a large family, yet does not attend to the other parts of her family. frustrations. the pain increases and the medication levels go up. stronger. making one more numb. to be ready to pass. yet we sit with a bored conversation of nothingness. numb and one frustrated. one longing in a far away unknown wishing to be with their other. to create things many call to be memories. and here i sit, in frustrations of one family trying to cope and another loosing their tightness. frustrations. fuck this shit.